I was diagnosed with kidney disease at the age of 22. Yes, too young. Sometimes I wish I had some time before lightning struck and changed life as I knew it. I wish I would have known a few years before this was to happen. I would have at least done a few things I cannot now do. Well, its not as if I cannot do these things. But its a whole lot more complicated and difficult. Almost impossible.
The main thing I would have done was travel. I would have made a trip to Switzerland and seen the Alps. I would have stayed for a few days at one of those secluded houses which I heard about from my mother and brother who have been there; in the middle of nowhere, with no human being in sight for miles. Where it would be so cold that you didn't feel like getting out of your bed from under the rug in the morning except to the smell of chocolate.
I would have travelled to the US and done a cruise. I have always wanted to do this. Staying on a luxurious ship and just enjoying myself the whole day. If I was not in the swimming pool on the deck, I would be luxuriating in the jacuzzi or sampling the exotic food that was on offer. I would love to jump into the ocean or curl up in my bed looking at the ocean from inside amazed at the humungous volume of water that was all around me.
I would also have planned to spend a few weeks with some sages to try and learn the secrets of peace - something I would really need in the days to come. I would spend a lot more time on religion. I would try to understand the scriptures and learn the languages in which they were written. They would provide me the strength to face the tribulations ahead.
Oh, how I wish I had known in advance. It all happened too soon. My life was snatched from me in one fell swoop. I had no time to prepare. This wasn't fair at all.
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Vinay
Kamal
There are many of us who "knew" that the time will come...yet do not necessarily do all the things that we want to do. That is firstly because there is no such thing as a 'finite' list of things and also because we are still 'lost'. We live moments the way we live them....but then judge them afterwards as to how we should have lived them. It is this sense of regret later that is the biggest bane as that will remain irrespective of how high we might think we lived. This is the reason I did not comment on your post about "healthy people...do not ignore"....because it is all relative.
I wrote a long comment about life being fair...but I erased that text as there is nothing one can say about it. Nothing is fair...and everything is fair.
Another key thing is that the maturity and reflection that one has "after" being crippled is different from what it would be before or for that matter even in anticipation. So, the thought of going to sages and stuff...would probably not have occured even if one knew what was in store (atleast for most of us)....